Mikaela

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
I'm so mad and embarrassed that I'm going to explode
I HATE the fact that I lack confidence in wearing glasses in front of people, especially those whom I'd like to give a good impression on
I really wanted to kill that fear today
so I wore casual clothes (sports) and glasses to go down stairs to get lunch
my timing was bad
the Pop dance club just finished their performance and all came in to the same fast food store to get lunch
I tried to avoid meeting people I knew
though I wished I could just smile and say hello like usual
so I ordered and went to read magazines at another store
about 15 mins later I went back
my order was not done
the crowd of people were still there
I tried to stand and wait in front of the counter
playing around with my mobile phone trying to look busy
but I am too self conscious
so I went back to the other store and waited for another 10 minutes
when I got back to the fast food
the waiter said that my order was done but they couldn't find me and my number plate (I usually leave it on the counter and come back for it. It was never a problem)
so they gave my order to another customer
so now I have to wait another few minutes
I stood there, I didn't know who to blame
I think the final charge would be mine
I attempted to prove that I don't care
but I failed
resulting in an even worse situation
I care too much about what other's think
Maybe they didn't even notice me
coz no one said hello
or was I too self-conscious that no one dared to say hello?
I HATE BEING OVER SELF-CONSCIOUS
THAT WAY I CAN'T BE MYSELF