Mikaela

今天又頭痛
痛ㄌ一下午
幸好晚上沒有又胃痛

天氣晴朗又溫暖ㄉ一天
早上逼自己起床去健身
先去吃好久都沒吃到ㄉ麥當勞早餐
因為有好一陣子都太晚起
幾乎沒吃早餐
不過沒有吃我愛吃ㄉ鬆餅餐
因為怕熱量太高
會影響運動效果

沒有看到像李連杰ㄉ那ㄍ人
有點失望
遇到Benson打ㄌ招呼
他說妳好早來喔!
中午以前那裡人好少
我蠻喜歡人少ㄉ時候
機器不會用ㄉ話也不會覺ㄉ糗
因為那裡好多機器都好大又不能調
所以很不適合我用
但是我又想做
所以做起來就卡卡ㄉ
今天試了Epress zone
跑步比較沒力
可能是因為前天才去運動還沒有恢復吧
昨天左手手軸還有點痛
所以今天手練ㄉ比較少
因為時間很趕
來不及逛逛買午餐就急忙去工作ㄉ地方
匆忙ㄉ買ㄌ麵線和御飯團
吃一吃就上課了
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5:30pm休息時間
打ㄌ電話給他
一個禮拜沒連絡
我有傳簡訊都沒有回應
聽到他的語氣
很平常好像沒事發生一樣
還有種很輕鬆很有精神ㄉ感覺
我的心倒抽了一口氣
好像被針刺到一樣
原來我是那麼的不重要
我度日如年ㄉ痛苦難受
他竟然還忙碌的過他的新生活
找到工作
我竟然過了幾天才知道
手機能通了
也沒有立刻跟我連絡
而是我隔天打給他才順便說的
雖然我的語氣跟他一樣輕鬆
然而我卻很想把手機狠很的摔在地上
很想崩潰
進到教室就要上課了
我面對著白板
被對著學生
眼淚就快掉下來
強忍著叫自己冷靜
一個小女孩天真的走道我旁邊給我看一個磁鐵娃娃
問我是不是有磁鐵
我拿起來黏在白板上微笑的對她說對啊
其實我的心已經在哭泣
謝謝她讓我轉移注意力
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今天還是失控ㄉ拍桌
因為一群小男生太吵
真抱歉
我會改進
昨天看著跟他們ㄉ合照
發現他們都好小好小
雖然有的四五年級
但是照片裡看起來都是好小好可愛的小孩
我才覺得我應該再寬容一點
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你說看晚上有沒有空ㄉ時間可以見面
要我等你ㄉ電話
我下班了一直沒有電話
我也學乖ㄌ
先買ㄌ晚餐
接到簡訊
你很忙很累
還有很多理由
雖然都是事實
我無言
真ㄉ忍不住好難過ㄉ哭
最近我想ㄌ好多
反省自己是不是不夠好
是不是自私
也許有一半是我有問題
但是你也的確讓我失望
我不能給你你想要的
你也不能給我我想要的

雖然常被小朋友氣ㄉ發飆
常常又覺ㄉ他們很可愛
會跟我講一些話
很直接
也很真誠
毫不掩飾
這是我愈來愈喜歡跟他們相處ㄉ原因
想到只剩兩ㄍ月相處ㄉ時間
開始有點捨不得
想對他們更好更有耐心一點

最近常胃痛
吃到一半痛
心情常鬱悶
常頭痛
學業沒著落
愛情不順利
上ㄍ月超支
身理心理都還是在低潮
不過會控制情緒
上班還是要正常ㄉ面對同事學生
不會跟以前一樣一整天都擺臭臉其實是面無表情
我ㄉ改變我知道就好
不會像一些男人常常掛在嘴邊
說自己變ㄌ很多
結果還是一樣

Artist: Forty Foot Echo Lyrics
Song: Brand New Day Lyrics
Soundtrack: Freaky Friday

Never thought I'd say I'm sorry
Never thought I'd be the one to bring you down
Now when I look out my window
But there doesn't seem to be anyone around

And I, I think I'll change my ways
So all your words get noticed
Tomorrow's a brand new day
Tomorrow's a new day

We said we'd take little time
For both of us to see
ANd wonder what it'd be like to carry on
Ya, I know I got crazy
Well I guess that's just me
If I could turn back time before
The wrong

And I, I think I'll change my ways
So all your words get noticed
Tomorrow's a brand new day
Tomorrow's a new day

Ya, And I, I think I'll change my ways
So all your words get noticed
I think I'll change my ways
I think I'll change my ways
Ahhhhh, Ahhhhh
I think I'll change my ways

Never thought I'd say I'm sorry
Never thought I'd be the one
To bring you down

last Sat 4/28
had plenty of "me time"
Went to the gym in the afternoon
didn't have to rush
took my time and finished at 5:30pm
went to 西門116 to get cosmetic for Venus and bought some for myself too
everything was 20% off, did some window shopping but didn't buy any clothes
shopped alone till Maygo and Diane came
we hang out and went to dinner at Subway, I was so hungry and only wanted to eat that, was so happy to have that
I didn't notice that when we were waiting to cross the road, a young man was beside us, checking me out.
According to M, I was talking to D and didn't pay attention to anyone else, and probably I was thinking about the nice
subway I was about to have:P
M said the man stared at me from head to toe and got around us to get a better look, even D noticed him.
Strangely enough, I had no impression at all.
They said he was carrying a red Farrarri bag, wearing a vest and a pair of glasses, average looking.
Anyway, thought it was funny.
We went to 西門新宿 coz I was looking for a type of hat
I didn't find it but end up buying hair bands and a white bracelet
D said to me"You really like white don't you?"
Then I realised that I had been spotting out many white items unconsciously
Maybe White is my new fav color!
It was really good to have hung out with them
though M was not very well and kept smoking
D tried to lighten the mood by being funny
After saying goodbye, I went to kong guan to collect some things that I ordered
I was really tired by the time I got home which is about 11pm.
Still had to return a DVD "Bable"
and watch another DVD "Just My Luck"
it was light, funny, sweet and romantic
but not a very impressive one in its category

Happy Birthday! to my dearest friend, Jack.
You are a very special friend, I'm grateful for you.
I wish you a very very special and unforgetable birthday^^
May our friendship last a life time~

It just occurred to me that I felt the same low point on both 2006-4-27 and 2007-4-26
almost exactly a year's difference.
Is it a coincidence?
Or is it periodical?
It makes me think of fate.
I have this feeling that I might have been Greek in one of my past lives.
I love Greek Mythology and the goddess.
I admire Athena.
I always wanted to visit Athens.
Isn't it that Athena helps Odysseus in his return in Odyssey?
I too believe that I am guided by the gods.
Many times by Venus I guess, particularly in love.
I need Wisdom.
Who is the god of Wisdom?
May your power befall me.

Child, I envy you.
If you cry, I will try to comfort you and make you feel better.
If you make mistakes, I will give you many chances to start all over.
I lose my temper, but I still forgive you and have patience to teach you again and again.

Child, I am like you.
I naively believe in many things, including people.
I try things and make mistakes, similar mistakes many times.
I confess being selfish sometimes, when I want someone to love me for who I am and not try to change me.
It's hard to hold in my emotions, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
This is why I get hurt so easily.
when I feel hurt, I cry.
when I feel offended, I lose temper.
But I forget easily, I don't bare a grudge.
I don't intend to hurt anybody.

When our world gets too complicated,
it's too much to handle for me.
I need understanding,
not repremanding.
I need affection,
not suggestions.

雖然一天還是悶悶ㄉ開始
雖然仍然沒有留言簡訊
存在感很低
雖然沒有通知信
希望很小
一天還是要過
該做ㄉ事還是要做
沒有因為我ㄉ傷感而停止
那就不要再想ㄌ
出門吧
去郵局
去看喉嚨
這幾天已經快要咳死ㄌ
很久沒發炎ㄉ這麼嚴重
弄完就去上班
下ㄌ班
再找事情作吧
反正不要閒下來就不會亂想

yes, today, I was extremely unhappy
what can I say?
I'm a coward
I will not admitted it to you
I will not call you either
I'll pretend it's fine
I'm so tired of playing games
who is more pretentious, me or you?
you twist the meaning of my words
we should have said it face to face
alas!
what will be will be..

還是太難用ㄌ
要等下載還要一直按上下鍵
所以還是換回一般ㄉ介面啦
剛好有我前陣子超喜歡ㄉ花樣少年少女!
真懷念那時每天上網看you tubeㄉ時候!
迷戀泉
覺ㄉ瑞希很勇敢很佩服她
覺ㄉ秀伊很古椎
好希望有續集喔

wow 真ㄉ太酷ㄌ
我發覺換成BBSㄉ畫面就會不由自主想用上下鍵
想當初是進ㄌ交大才學會用BBS
第一ㄍ學期還不太會用所以幾乎都不上線
後來比較會用ㄌ有時候會掛在線上
習慣一下課回宿舍就看一下BBS看一下NCTU版
NCTU版雖然有時候有些蠻機車ㄉ文章
不過大部分ㄉ時候其實還蠻好笑ㄉ
每次一有地震就會有人PO "地震"
一點點風吹草動都有人要報告一下
後來畢業ㄌ以後發現在FL板上ㄉ人少又少
過去常光顧ㄉ班版和一些朋友ㄉ版也都缺水枯竭ㄌ
就幾乎不想上去ㄌ
那也許就是屬於大學ㄉ一部分回憶吧

腸胃炎加咳嗽加生理期
禮拜一
還是去上班
但是站不久
所以幾乎都用坐ㄉ
坐著教可愛ㄉ二年級還可以過ㄉ去
但是我不敢想想原本就很難管ㄉ四年級
又因為我肚子很不舒服一直悶痛
所以我四點就先請假回家ㄌ
到家還是拉肚子
有點想吐
又有點發冷好像體內還是有發炎
回到家蒸ㄌ一鍋紅糖紅棗薑湯
但是沒胃口喝
也沒力氣去外面買晚餐
在台灣還算方面
要是我一個人在美國或是國外遇到這樣ㄉ狀況
除非有人來相救
不然就只能在家喝西北風
會不會有邪惡ㄉ老巫婆拿蘋果來
或是好心ㄉ小矮人拿食物來
還是有英挺ㄉ王子來給我一個有魔力的吻呢呵呵

第一圈就很精采
小飛俠Rossi滑出跑道
從第一落後到第六
不到一分鐘
中斷ㄉ幾ㄍ人包括Padrosa和Rossiㄉ隊友共四台車翻車
Padrosa退出比賽
Ducatti 隊ㄉStoner一路領先
Tony Elias第二
也是Ducatti隊ㄉCaparossi第三
Rossi本來已經追到第二但是愈多彎道後他ㄉ後輪有不當磨損
加上他原本對土耳其ㄉ賽道就有心理障礙
所以之後就一直被超前
最後落到第十名
總積分51
Stoner 61
雖然Rossi不能拿站冠軍我很難過
不過我想他有實力所以之後一定會反敗為勝
他是The Doctor
應該會想辦法克服心理障礙才是
年輕澳洲帥哥Cassie Stoner表現傑出贏得冠軍我也很高興
看他站在冠軍台上
聽著澳洲國歌
有種懷念ㄉ感覺
心裡也跟著唱

昨天被腸胃炎折騰ㄌ一天
一大早起來就有點發燒ㄉ想吐感覺
其實前一天晚上就已經有身體發熱
但是覺ㄉ可能只是太累身體不舒服
小培說可能是身體在散熱所以我也沒在意
加上跳完Nikeㄉ課心情好又變ㄉ比較有精神
喝ㄌ一杯50嵐珍奶和cheese biscit就睡ㄌ
雖然早上起來時不舒服
但是還硬撐著去工作
因為我是幼稚園運動會ㄉ英文大會宣示代表人
打扮好化好妝
根本看不出我不舒服
宣示完我還再大太陽下幫大會ㄉ大人小孩拍照過ㄌ半小時才離開
為ㄌ省錢
因為去ㄉ時候是做小黃
回家ㄉ時候我走了好一段路去撘公車
結果太陽很大氣溫很高我又等不到車
突然一陣很難過想吐頭暈又呼吸急促ㄉ感覺
很像經痛要爆發前ㄉ感覺
我很害怕ㄉ打電話給媽媽要她來接我
我就坐在路邊ㄉ椅子上
媽媽到ㄌ她說要帶我去一耳鼻喉診所
我說要去大醫院
但是最後還是聽她ㄉ
笨大夫根本看不出我很不舒服
開ㄌ止吐藥退燒藥止鼻水藥 我又沒流鼻水
回到家我吃ㄌ稀飯
不到十分鐘馬上吐
過ㄌ一會我吃藥也吐
後來就去躺著休息
到ㄌ三點多大姊二姊回來
我又突然很不舒服ㄉ一直吐
又開始有像經痛ㄉ腹痛
還開始拉肚子
虛弱到站不起來
後來大姊說要帶我去醫院掛急診
我才一股坐氣離開廁所
穿ㄌ外套就上車

到ㄌ醫院醫生檢查說是急性腸胃炎
但也沒說原因
我就在那抽血打點滴又打ㄌ一劑消炎針和整腸針
躺在病床上打點滴真不舒服
很冷手又不能動
床很窄但我又全身不舒服想動
急診是很吵
都是護士工作人員在講話
燈很亮
真不知道這樣ㄉ設計誰能好好休息
留觀室還有喝醉ㄉ人一直發出怪聲
還在廁所狂吐在地上
惡臭傳遍整間房間幸好不是密閉空間
幸好護士小姐人蠻好ㄉ
還跟我聊天
因為她說我好瘦
我姊說我有肌肉耶因為打網球
她說女生打網球很好耶
我點滴還沒打完就想走ㄌ
還好她也讓我先走
不過一回到家就又不舒服
又吐ㄌ幾次
大姊二姊大概看電視陪我陪到八點多吧
後來我也睡著ㄌ一下
九點爸爸回來
我出ㄌ汗好一點
又斷斷續續睡
一ㄍ晚上起來五次吧
一次全身流汗起來擦和換衣服
起來喝ㄌ幾次FIN上廁所
西瓜昨天一直在我房間門口坐著陪我
她好貼心
她是我們家ㄉ老奶奶也是寶貝
我今天好很多就幫她梳毛為她吃藥
昨天是大姊幫我做ㄉ

因為昨天太虛弱沒洗澡
今天一起來精神好多ㄌ就去洗澡把穿ㄉ衣服床單枕頭套被套都拿去洗
舒服清爽多ㄌ